It’s been FOREVER since I’ve made an installment to my ‘Wellness Wednesday’ series. In my last installment I shared a Nature Box review (click HERE for that) and the one before that I shared my “new” workout regimen and meal prep (click HERE for that post). That was over a YEAR ago so CLEARLY that was a FAIL.
I go through these phases where I’m ready to work out, but I can never stay committed. I tell myself, well psych myself out, to believe that I am comfortable in the skin I’m in when really I’m not. I try to play off that I love wearing black and grey along with my favorite thin striped shirt from H&M, but they all conceal the flaws.
I’m not expecting to be skinny. That’s not a goal. The real goal is to be able to walk u p and down steps without being winded. To be able to play with the kids at my job, even my nephews, without running out of breath within two minutes. To be able to fight the urge to eat past 9pm. To get out of the “see food” diet that’s been a part of my life, forever.
I look at my sister as inspiration, little does she know. She’s a mother of 2 and while it may look like we may where the same size we’re proportioned differently and she looks great to have had two boys. While she does not work out, minus walking, her eating habits are amazing. Of course she has what some call “cheat days,” but for the most part she eats a lot of veggies and drinks a lot of water which has helped her lose weight and maintain over the years. I want to adapt eating habits like those.
I’ve never been skinny and as long as I can remember I’ve always been chubbier than I’ve wanted to be. My weight has been an issue. My stomach is one area that I can’t wait to vanish and at one point I actually lost it. That was back in my sophomore year of high school. My gym class was INTENSE and my doctors note couldn’t even get me out of what the gym teacher had planned. I worked out every night for about an hour or so on my arms, legs, butt, and especially my stomach. We had a treadmill, a bike, weights. I used them all. Again, that was back in my sophomore year of high school.
During my Senior year my mom passed away from lung cancer and I became an emotional eater. Well, I was always am emotional eater. I ate when I was bored, sad, lonely. If I was reading a book I needed a snack. Doing home, I needed a snack. I always needed something yet, of course, it was never healthy. Now here I am at 23 and I keep saying I want to get fit, but it’s beyond that. I want to get out of this rut I’m in where I rely on food to solve my problems.
Now I am not obese by any means. I am not overweight to be 5’6″ either. When I look at pictures of myself I can spot every flaw. For one, my stomach. Plus I have back fat. Now my arms are expanding, my waist seems to keep expanding too. I just want to get out of this. So, I’m embarking on a new challenge. A challenge to stay committed to this 30 day challenge i’m putting myself on. Click HERE for that challenge plus HERE for the water tracker I use. I’ve printed it out and put it in my planner, which is such a great feeling to check things off. This series is surely making a comeback as I’ll be updating on how I’m keeping up with the challenge as well as if my eating habits are improving, etc.
Come along for the journey of what could be AWESOME or an EPIC FAIL! As the title stated, let’s try this again.