It’s been a week since I’ve been home. A week since I’ve completely thrown myself into finishing grad school, producing more content for Chaotic Critic, and starting the job search. Oh, the job search. Even when I had a job it was tedious. Not many call backs. Is it me? Is there something else I should be doing? Do I really not qualify? What could I do in the meantime to support myself?
There are no shortcuts to any place worth going.
I sit and think of what’s next for me. It’s frustrating to hear nothing back from the jobs I’m applying to. When I graduated back in 2013, I didn’t get a job in my field. Here I am 3 years later still trying to find my path.
I’m not sure what my next step is. It’ll be fun to blog about what’s to come, but there’s still that “fast lane” in the back of my mind. When I say “fast lane,” I’m thinking, what can I do now just to tie me over? What I can I do just to get noticed? It’s all temporary actions that I want to do. Instead I need to take steps towards my ultimate goal instead of just trying to get a “quick fix.”
I would love to do more public speaking sharing my experiences from dealing with grief to pursuing higher education. I have opportunities in front of me to do so. No, they’re not paid. Should that be the only incentive to do something? Shouldn’t you just take the opportunity that was presented and grow from it?
No longer will I turn down opportunities just because money isn’t involved. Money really isn’t everything. Would I like to be paid down the line, yes, but to gain experience you have to expect the journey. You have to expect that there will be a long road ahead. In the end, that journey you took has prepared you for the opportunity of your lifetime.
When I think of shortcuts, I think of studying for a test. When I’ve studied for a test, I’ve taken shortcuts from not prepping long enough to just hoping I’d “pass.” When I changed my tactic to spreading out and actually trying to retain the information, the results were completely different.
I have to learn to accept and enjoy this journey. Right now I’m spitting out my resume to every opportunity I feel I qualify for because I need a job. Nothing happens on my time. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and this journey I’m on is for a reason. However long I will wait until I have a new job is for a reason.
Enjoy what is around you instead of trying to rush your life. You never know what or who you may encounter by not taking that shortcut. You never know what you may learn by taking that extra step you once felt was unnecessary. I have quickly learned to enjoy this free time that I have. To enjoy what is around me and do all the things I’ve wanted to do yet never had the time to. My time will eventually come. In the meantime, I’ll take advantage of what I can to continuously help me grow.