As of Friday I’ll be officially done at my job. I did something that I’ve been talking about for 3 years now, I quit. No backup plan, no savings, just a leap of faith. I was tired of sacrificing my happiness for a paycheck. I couldn’t keep debating on when to leave just because the job was a job. To really succeed and to really see change, I’d have to take the first step.
I’ve been working at the daycare since the Summer of 2009, my freshman year in college. It was my first real job aside from work study. The pay was fine then, as I didn’t have nearly as many bills or responsibilities. Here we are 6 years later and I have decided to leave to pursue my career.
Leaving my job will give me time to pursue what I felt I’ve never had time to, write a book. I’ve always made excuses for why I couldn’t write a book. It was either work or school that took up my time. I was always too tired after working all day to actually come home and do something. Now, I plan to look for another job for sure, but while I’m looking I can put my energy to use and get started. It’s time for me to get over myself and just do it!
Shawnda Patterson, better known as BronzeGoddess01 on YouTube, is one of my favorites. She’s releasing a new book, Breaking the Man Code: The Key to Unlocking His Heart, and it speaks volumes to me that she’s self-published and on to book #2 (The Dating Game: How To Find Yourself While Looking for Mr. Right), in a matter of two years. I recently left her a simple comment on her video announcement congratulating her and her comment really spoke to me.
Out of everything she wrote, what really hit me was:
When you feel the fear and do it anyway, it changes you.
I have been contemplating on quitting my job since I graduated from undergrad back in 2013. I always kept telling myself at the end of the school year that this was it, yet September would roll around and no change had been made. After seeing my brother graduate from high school this past June, I made the decision. It was a fast decision and I chose July 15th to be the end for me.
I’ll be done with grad school in August and I was waiting until then to leave. I could kill 2 birds with one stone and close two chapters in my life at the same time. Makes sense right? Is that what I really wanted to do? Did it really make me happy? I am so tired of the day to day redundancy that I needed to make a change sooner rather than later. I’ve never been one to initiate change in my life, but here I am and I am beyond happy with my decision.
I cannot wait to put myself back out there. I did not land a dream job when I graduated from college. I have friends who jumped right into the field, but clearly that wasn’t my path. It wasn’t my time. I know my time is now and I am ready.
I had a conversation with my Chiropractor about my decision to quit my job. Most people gave me a side eye and bombarded me with questions. What’s next? Where are you working? Do you have a plan? His approach was different. He understood because he had been there. He left a huge chiropractic office to start one of his own. He left what was comfortable. He told me that if it was something I wanted to do, to just do it.
While my anxiety is usually on 1000 and I second guess myself often, I am really at peace and ecstatic about my decision. It’s really happening. I am prayerful that I will have a job soon. I am prayerful that it is going to be the job that I want. I have been specific in what it is that I want and I will no longer stress it. I have faith and trust in God that the right opportunity will present itself. In the meantime, I’m going to keep creating content, networking, and starting the book I’ve been wanting to for years.
I’m over beating myself up over the direction of my life. I’m ready to officially live for me and not just for a paycheck. I’m ready to act on my dreams and care less about if others think I’m crazy or not. You only come this way once. As cliche as it sounds, do more of what makes you happy.
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